On the verge of losing it all
Not knowing what path to choose
Not knowing who I am
Yet knowing all I want
Is you
You say its not possible
You say you're not worth it
You say you push me away
When you know we're closer than ever
Tears are shed
Hearts are broken
With that,
Eyes are swollen,
The mending begins

Where do we stand now?
When everything was given up,
All for this
And this is nothing
Wondering on about this,
About you,
About me,
About them,
And about us
What seems not possible
Is.

Every waking moment
I think...
And still... I dont know any more.
I dont know what to think
I dont know what to feel
I dont know what to do
I wonder all the time
'Am I even allowed to love you?'
Its seemingly as if
I'm dreaming of the forbidden
Where I'm allowed to love
And be loved back
Guilt free
And shameless
Wishing upon the joys
Of being with the one I love
And of being free of contemplation

I shouldnt even be feeling shame
When I think of loving you
We know what we want
Why cant we have it?
This world of underminders
Will never please everyone
Sacrificing my happiness,
And yours
All for one other?
Is it really worth it?
Fratenizing over?

no

Nothing else is going through my mind
Except you,
Except whats going to happen
And what will never have a chance to happen...

What are we for each other
If not allowed to express anything?
Fate will not bring us together
We're already together as it is
But yet you fight it
This is all meaningful
Take it in hand
And never let go
Dont let me lose
Something, and someone...
That I never really had

Seeing you so often
Being so close,
Yet knowing...
Knowing you're so far...
You might not know it
But you mean something to me
Always have,
Always will.
Please dont let me lose someone I love...
Again